what.

I can't even find inner peace anymore

counting stars.

here. I am chained and shackled to the walls of reality.
the only way to tell i'm alive is by the
tears that roll down my cheecks.
I thought I was free, free from problems and society
But was caught by time itself.
To understand would take me years for me to explain,
But only a week to realize.
Each star I count only leads me to nothing
Nothing, that place where my faith is/
But only when the shackles come off,
and I am free from reality,
Will I'll be truely happy,
and faith has a place in my heart.
Hear my battle cry , the battle cry
of me.

where are you.

i see i hear i love it all.
but maybe , is it all just wrong ?

ahah

damn , you think it might be fake
but to me , it's real.
all this , this blog comes from what i am.
the only place where i can review what i've done , and how to fix.
and mix it together.
so i can create a new.
i still can't solve my rubix cube mind.

i really wanna just like , understand.

i still wonder , if people open up arms.
increase the peace , screw the mainstream.
ahah , my hand is still here , to help you whenever you need it.
like a statue , waiting.
waiting for you to accept me.

a tinted window , only to be seen through the eyes of the wandered.

it's amazing how one song can change a mood ,
a sad one to a happy one .
i really like those kinds of songs.
they pull me through.
i can hear the sad memories,
still haunting me.
but only to run towards the light.
where i can find happiness.
it's amazing , still.
how people don't really understand me still.

bored in socials , LOL.

so here we go again, an amazing tune
it's like a giant battle wound
where'd i get this wound ?
from my freestyle battles
makes the others peoples minds rattle
I spit, dominate the mic and stage
but I don't have the money and not even minimum wage
but still lyrics and lines flow out of my pen
and they always make peoples eyes red
you know why? of course not silly
because it makes peoples eyes teary
due to the beautiful beats and words I produce.
so anyways hi i'm ------- that's no doubt
at the moment I feel like a mount
sitting here just listening isn't that great
get's boring and i feel like bait,
in a shark infested area.
but whoa I got off track
because a bit about it sounded wack -_-
so i'm almost at the end of my page
the ending words before I leave my page
to dream is to dream and to win is to win
is all i think is really true
just like how cows go moo
this is me, this is now
able to make all this up, wow.
but I love writting like this
it's like I can wish, wish, wish
for love and a happy life
and of course a beautiful wife
so i'm done my spit, put down my mic
walk away, go home on my bike
and enjoy the rest of my life.
word.

mama told me.

and what did mama told me ?
why , to keep on dancing in the moonlight of course.
she also told me to never give up on my dreams.
because it's true , they are goals i want to do.

worst comes to worst.

yo , this time of night it kind of mellow

like the vibration of green jellow.

but really , where does it all come from,

it comes from there . the area where no one can see.

the area where respect and dreams would be.

unlocking puzzles , breaking codes , deciphering cyphers.

anything to get the answer i desire

worse comes to worse , but his people comes first .

a goal i reach , kinda relates to mike myers in shrek.

where he had to save fiona in the first movie.

and he was no loony.

i'd bring the game , but no one plays.

i'd row the boat , but no one rows.

i'd light the fireplace, but no one gets warm.

so what do i ?

i smile of course , and let all my problems soak away.

smiling to me , is like medicine that can cure me anytime , and anywhere.

and the best part is.

it's free , has meaning , and needs effort to be put in.

from bboys

to DJ's

to hiphop it self.

that still requires effort too , even though it's on life support.

and what does this all mean , this whole entire post that i have developed over time?

the only answer would be the answer, and that answer is already mine in time.

can't help it , can't deny it , because i love it.

i enjoy being a otaku.

AHAH ,

i'm so cool.

1,2,3,4

i came through my bathroom door

5,6,7,8

look how great i look mate.

i'm not afraid to show real colors

but you know one day when i'm another.

i'll look back to the past and have a smile.

because i know , i was proud to enjoy

the sensation of what it is.

anime.

i ain't mad at you , sometimes i wish i didn't know you but i'm glad i do.

i really hope one day time reverses.

and happiness comes back.

to time and cheerfulment.

i've be even happy if time just went back a day , where no secerts , smirks , or other things appeared.

is this not agreeable , is this agreeable.

sometimes i try to act , when it isn't.

you know , you keep a smile on my face.

and i try real hard.

so i wonder.

where did you go ?

and biters, are not i.

i got more shit you can't even relate too ( 8 )

what would you do , if you had a chance to fly.
but only to be clipped of yours wings in a mattter of years ?
that emotion , feeling , that experiance will be gone.
but i guess if you don't take the chance you won't be able to even get all that.
oh well , right ?

all the girls get the guys on the floor.

so i read a post from one of my friend's blog,
and it got me thinking.
wth right ?
fuck all this  , it's not really worth it
but it is somehow that according to life.
i just wish i could just fly,
and get paid at the same time
but dreams only do happen in your most wildest imagination.
just like sex , drugs and coco puffs.
that book was f'`` .
if one of them adored you.
one of them loved you
and one of the liked you.
which one would you prefer m'dear ?